kiwi_greenie's Xanga

Sunday, January 11, 2009

Sun, 11 Jan 2009 12:37:16 GMT

...jag skulle utomlands
jag bytte efternamn
och jag blev en av dom som aldrig kommit hem...

shut up and kiss me

Thu, 20 Nov 2008 10:18:03 GMT

I like the moment right before I kiss someone for the first time.

It’s silent, yet it says so much. It’s that cozy little pause when we’ve flirted and talked, done the whole eye-contact-and-smile thing, and then we just stop, as if we’re acknowledging that there is something more than words coursing between us, as if the energy of a conversation is an understatement.

The world shrinks, or we grow, but I know at that moment, whoever the lucky guy is and I are bigger than the rest and this is the point everything we had done from our initial contact was leading to.

It’s tense, getting tenser by the second, and it's risky, and no matter how long it took to get there, it feels so soon, as if everything else that happened was a lousy excuse, perhaps of fear of the kiss and the chance it may be unreturned. But we know it won’t be.

This moment says it all.

We look into each other’s eyes and we can almost feel each other although not a single bit of us is touching. I think it’s priceless, electrifying, exciting, suspense, yet kind of comforting since we both know the kiss is coming.

Except kisses sometimes disappoint…either the guy’s lips are too thin, or not the right softness to feel good on mine, maybe he slobbers like a dog, or he holds me just wrongly.

The moment never does…it’s as beautiful with a great kisser as it is with a lousy one.

What do you think?

Wed, Nov 19

Wed, 19 Nov 2008 12:27:46 GMT

It kills me not to know this but I've all but just forgotten
What the color of her eyes were and her scars or how she got them
As the telling signs of age rain down a single tear is dropping
Through the valleys of an aging face that this world has forgotten
There is no reconciliation that will put me in my place
And there is no time like the present to drink these draining seconds
But seldom do these words ring true when I'm constantly failing you
Like walls that we just can't break through until we disappear

So tell me now
If this ain't love then how do we get out?
Because I don't know
That's when she said I don't hate you boy
I just want to save you while there's still something left to save
That's when I told her I love you girl
But I'm not the answer to the questions that you still have

But the day pressed on like crushing weights
For no man does it ever wait
Like memories of dying days
That deafen us like hurricanes
Bathed in flames we held the brand
Uncurled the fingers in your hand
Pressed into the flesh like sand
Now do you understand?

So tell me now
If this ain't love then how do we get out?
Because I don't know
That's when she said I don't hate you boy
I just want to save you while there's still something left to save
That's when I told her I love you girl
But I'm not the answer to the questions that you still have

1000 miles away
There's nothing left to say
But so much left that I don't know
We never had a choice
This world is too much noise
It takes me under
It takes me under once again
I don't hate you
I don't hate you

So tell me now
If this ain't love then how do we get out?
Because I don't know
That's when she said I don't hate you boy
I just want to save you while there's still something left to save
That's when I told her I love you girl
But I'm not the answer to the questions that you still have

I don't hate you
I don't hate you, no

Today's intake:

Breakfast: 2 apples, 2 Früchtegut yoghurts with Special K

Snack: 2 Früchtegut yoghurts

Snack: 2 apples

Lunch: soup, 2 pieces of meat, brocoli, mixed salad

Snack: 2 apples, 2 cups of raspberries

Snack: 2 apples, 2 Früchtegut yoghurts

Dinner: tomato and mozarella salad, 4 integral bread sticks

1 fizzy a-z vitamin pill

1 fizzy vitamin c pill

Today’s outtake:

Morning workout: 10:16 min; 56.3kcal on Orbitrek, 50 jumping jacks, 2x30 back extensions, 10 min pilates, 2x50 sit ups, 5 min stretching

2x30 min biking

1 hour hike

Evening workout: 2x50 situps [went out with friends, so I missed my evening workout]

YAY no school tomorrow either!!! :]

Tue, Nov 18

Tue, 18 Nov 2008 22:16:29 GMT

Today's intake:

Breakfast: 2 pieces of integral bread and Philadelphia toast, 1 apple & 2 cups of blueberries

Snack: 2 apples

Snack: 1 Früchtegut yoghurt

Lunch: chicken soup, 1 piece of beef in some kind of onion and spice saude & cucumber salad

Snack: 2 apples

Snack: 2 Früchtegut yoghurts

Dinner: green salad and tuna sandwich

1 fizzy a-z vitamin pill

Today’s outtake:

Morning workout: 11:03 min; 63.2 kcal on Orbitrek, 2x50 jumping jacks, 5 min stretching, 2x50 sit ups, 2x30 back extensions, 10 min pilates, 5 min stretching

Evening workout: 2x50 sit ups, 12:24 min; 69.5 kcal on Orbitrek, 2x30 back extensions, 50 jumping jacks, 10 min pilates, 5 min stretching

Mon, Nov 17

Mon, 17 Nov 2008 18:44:05 GMT

I'm having some terrible cravings today...It's like sinful yummies keep springing out of nowhere to tease me and it's so hard to resist! I had to watch Sarita eat a whole bag of godis and all I could do is sit there and watch in misery. ahh....And then Mike pops up with two big 300g Nestles in his hands and this wild idea to munch them up then hit the supermarket and make wish carts. Guess what mine had in it...

Today's intake:

Breakfast: 2 apples, 1 Früchtegut yoghurt, 3 carrots

Snack: 2 apples and some goat cheese

Snack: 2 Früchtegut yoghurt

Lunch: sweet and sour chicken with rice

Snack: 2 apples

Snack: 2 handfuls of peanuts

Dinner: tuna sandwich and green salad, 2 Früchtegut fruit yoghurts

1 fuzzy a-z vitamin pill

Today’s outtake:

Morning workout: 10:55 min; 61. kcal on Orbitrek, 50 sit ups, 2x20 back extensions, 10 min pilates, 5 min stretching

Evening workout: I have a tummyache, so I'm gonna sit this one out with a book and an apple nerd-style :P

Sun, Nov 16

Sun, 16 Nov 2008 09:59:16 GMT

Mrrrr, I just love lazy Saturdays. I love lazy Saturday nights, and they always make me feel so fresh on a Sunday morning. Too bad I had to skip on the nutella and the candy, but if I didn't it'd be lethargy station in my head this morning. Now I’m really in the mood to have a good day after yesterday not being a bit slow in dieting terms. Well, I’m off to fill my tummy and do my workout!

xoxo//anja

Today's intake:

Breakfast: 2 apples, 1 Früchtegut yoghurt, 5 beef proscuitto and goat cheese rolls, 1 bowl of tzaziki salad

Snack: 1 cup of raspberries and 1 apple

Snack: 1 cup of raspberries

Lunch: sushi

Snack: 2 apples

Snack: 1 apple

Dinner: raspberries and 2 handfuls of peanuts

Today’s outtake:

Morning workout: 2x50 sit ups, 2x20 back extensions, 5 min pilates, 12:56 min; 68.2 kcal on Orbitrek, 50 jumping jacks, 5 min stretching

Evening workout: 11:46 min; 62.7 kcal on Orbitrek, 2x50 sit ups, 30+15 back extensions, 5 min pilates, 5 min stretching

Sat, Nov 15

Sat, 15 Nov 2008 15:49:55 GMT

This morning I went for a long hike with my dogs, and felt really under the weather afterwards. I spent the rest of the day relaxing around the house...I didn't go shopping for those jeans I desperately need. Ugh...at least I napped :P

I'll need to work out more tomorrow. Today was a lazy day, and I'm probably gonna have a lazy night too. We were supposed to party, but there are no clubs that play good music tonight, so I may just end up cuddling with some friends and watching a movie...and NO NUTELLA! : (

I have to be strong for this one, so cross your fingers for me!

xoxo//anja

Today's intake:

Breakfast: 2 bowls of boiled peas, 1 apple, 1 handful of eanuts

Snack: 2 apples

Snack: 1 tangerine

Lunch: 10 beef prosciutto and soft goat cheese rolls, 3 bowls of tzaziki salad

Snack: 1 apple

Snack: 1 Früchtegut fruit yoghurt

Dinner: tuna and green salad

Today’s outtake:

Morning workout: 50 sit ups, 20 back extensions, 100 but lifts, 3 hour hike

Evening workout: 2x20 back extenstions, 5:20 min; 28.6 kcal on Orbitrek, 6 min stretching

Fri, Nov 14

Fri, 14 Nov 2008 07:37:41 GMT

Ok, this is so not fair. This morning I woke up and I felt so damn hungry, like my stomach hurt. Well it still does since instead of emptying the kitchen, I stayed upstairs and decided to write my worries away. Still not working, but hey…

I have a laid back day today, so I can fully focus on eating right and working out. I’m probably gonna go out for lunch with some friends, but I won’t eat at the restaurant since restaurants are rarely really conscious about the things they put in their food in terms of calorie value. Either that or I’m gonna order lettuce salad and add oil and vinegar by my likes since they always put too much oil, and not nearly enough vinegar. Poopheads.

I wonder what I should have for breakfast…I’m thinking a couple apples and some boiled corn, some yoghurt and…Danish blue?

Brekky went well! Ta-ta for now tummyache, now I'll let the food settle for a bit and then work up some sweat : )

In meantime, I'll feast my eyes on my new boyfriend<3

Isn't he love?

Yay, i cooked my own lunch! I was starved and my mom is out of the country, the maid has the day off and my dad had an emergency surgery, so I was left alone to handle my own lunch. It would have taken forever to bike to the center to buy groceries, so I had to improvize and cook it all myself. So i toook some integral bread, some tuna and did what mom did yesterday to the eggs and voila! No more hunger tummyache. This will probably sound silly to most of the people who get to read this, but it's a big success for me :] So please be happy for me.

xoxo//anja

Today's intake:

Breakfast: 1 bowl of boiled corn, 2 apples, a handful of almonds, 1 cup of salted yoghurt, 2 tangerines, 0.5l green and mint tea

Snack: a handful of peanuts

Snack: 1 apple

Lunch: tuna and egg sandwich & 2 bowls of cucumber, pea and spring onion salad

Snack: raincheck

Snack: 2 Früchtegut fruit yoghurts

Dinner: a handful of almonds & 2 bowls of boiled peas

Today’s outtake:

Morning workout: 10:13 min; 56.2 kcal on Orbitrek, 2x50 sit ups, 2x20 back extensions, 100 but lifts, 5 min stretching

2x30+20 min of biking

Evening workout: 11:03 min; 61.7 kcal on Orbitrek, 3 min stretching, 50 sit ups, 2x20 back extensions, 100 butt lifts, 2x20 side leg lifts, 3 min stretching.

DANCING TONIGHT!!!!

Thu, Nov 13

Thu, 13 Nov 2008 06:19:21 GMT

Today I have an exam, which I really haven’t studied for…at all…I had 6 months to learn this, but I never even opened my books till last night. So I’m fried. :S

No chocolate to comfort me. I could try the idea of being skinny again, but if that doesn’t work, I could just think of cutting the choc as punishment for my misdeeds…or however that may function.

Now I’m off to do my morning workout and get something in my tummy. It’s a new day and a fresh start, and I don’t plan on fucking this one up. : )

Before pic:

Gross, i know...time to shape up chubbs! [ cut me some slack on the abs...it was taken last night after a whole day of munching XD ]

xoxo//anja

Today's intake:

Breakfast: 1 cup of black coffee, 2 Früchtegut fruit yoghurts, 3 pieces of Knäckerbrott, 1 apple. YAY ME!...I'm fucked.

Snack: WHO THE FUCK ATE ALL THE ALMONDS?!!! 1 handful of peanuts, 1 tangerine

[You gotta cry without weeping, talk without speaking, scream without raising your voice.]

Snack: raincheck ...unless my nerves count as food, in which case I've had a good stuffing...:S I'm freaking out!!!

EXAM!!!!! [yay, it went quite better than expected, I may just ace it :) ]

Lunch: 2 scoops of mom's soup, 3 boiled eggs, green salad, 2 pieces of feta cheese, 3 pieces of Knäckerbrott

Snack: 2 apples & some danish blue cheese

Snack: 2 Früchtegut fruit yoghurts

Dinner: boiled peas & a handful of almonds

Today’s outtake:

Morning workout: 50 sit ups, 11:21 min on Orbitrek; 70.2 kcal [planned for half an hour but yah...no...], 2x20 back extensions, 3 min pilates [pilates ball butt lifts (100) and side leg lifts (2x20)], 3 min stretching...buttsson doesn't hurt anymore XD

2x30 min biking [to school and back]

50 sit ups

Evening workout: 50 situps, 11:01 min on Orbitrek; 69.4 kcal, 5 min pilates [ball butt and leg lifts], 60 jumpling jacks, 30 back extensions, 5 min stretching.

I'm gonna see the new Madagascar now. I'm extremely happy for that : )

xoxo//anja

The Challenge

Wed, 12 Nov 2008 18:07:12 GMT

I'm a perfectionist about many things and I have ideals. One of them involves looks.
Some would say I look just fine, others would say I'm skinny, but I'd disagree with everyone but the LA Barbie's opinions on my looks since I know a version of me that the Lollipopheads wouldn’t actually mind being around.

A proven fact is that I eat a lot. Much more, in fact, than an average person my size and shape, and much more than anyone I know with the exception of my pro athlete ex. But that’s beside the point here. I need to cut down on the enormous amounts of goodies and all other kinds of food I eat.

I have decided to take control of my life and food intake and hopefully once again be skinny like I once used to be and I plan on doing so by entering this Xanga challenge starting today (well in my time zone today is basically over as it’s 8pm), so I guess I can start by not eating anything for the rest of the day and do my regular Orbitrek workout and starting fresh tomorrow.

Wish me luck…I’m gonna need it.

xoxo//anja

P.S. Does anyone know any tips on how to end a chocolate addiction? :P

edit:

Today's intake:

Breakfast: an integral bread tuna sandwich, 1 Früchtegut fruit yoghurt.

Snack: 1 piece of baked pumpkin

Snack: 1 apple & 2 tangerines

Snack: 50g Milka chocolate (I told you I ate a lot)

Lunch: oven baked veal and potatoes, 1 bowl of tzaziki salad

Snack: 1 bowl of tzaziki salad & 2 Früchtegut fruit yoghurts

Snack: 1 apple

Dinner: veal and tzaziki salad

Today’s outtake:

Morning workout: 50 situ ps, 20 triceps dips, 10 min on Orbitrek

Evening workout: 50 sit ups, 30 back extensions, 10.24 min; 60.3 kcal on Orbitrek, 50 jumping jacks, 5min pilates, 5 min stretching